Nathan Sean Darmondy, I will miss you forever & ever

Hi guys! Sorry about the title. I’m just a bit sad right now, scroll to the bottom for why..

 I was just thinking of this gorgeous picture I found on tumblr. Here it is for your viewing pleasure :)


It’s beautiful, isn’t it?? I LOVE the colors so much. Today I was going to write about a very teary-eyed inspirational lecture but I’m not really in that kind of mood today! I’ll answer some great questions, sorry if it’s a lot ^_^ Right now I’m procrastinating. I have a project to do and I have to figure out a topic for a report, but I’m a bit lazy today. I’ll make the answers short & sweet ^_^

One. What is your middle name?

Not really eager to post my middle name on the internet, where there are a bunch of stalkers, thank you very much ^_^

Two. What are you passionate about?

I’m definitely passionate about writing (I’ll make a post about that later.) I’m passionate about music, books, & Disney. Disney is amazing ♥ (wanted to do Walt Disney for my report but then they said he’s overused)

Three. Zebra or leopard print?

I’m not really sure why so many girls in my class are crazy about jungle print. Honestly, I don’t like either, but if I’d have to choose I’d go with zebra :D
Four. Do you have any fears?

Well, duh. Everyone has fears. I’m afraid of spiders, falling, the dark, CREATURES in the dark, scary movies, dolls.. but mostly I’m afraid of my loved ones dying. The pain of losing a loved one is unbearable. 

Five. Silver or gold?

Gold ;)

Six. Top three places to visit.

Hmm I really want to visit France, England & Australia. (but I heard there’s a lot of weird mutant bugs there!! D: )

Seven. How many siblings do you have?

I’m an only child, except for my sister. Haha, I saw that line on a commercial & thought it was hilarious ♥ But yes, I do have an older sister. We’re 7 years apart. I kinda wish I had an older brother too that’s only a few years older than me, so if someone bugs me he can beat them up ;) So cute. My dream. I would also like a little sister, but that ain’t happening. 

Eight. Where are you from?

Let’s just say the US.

Nine. First career you wanted as a child.

I wanted to be a writer. And I still do.

Ten. What’s your sign?

Aries ;)

Eleven. Future names of your children.

Oh em gee! How about…

Girls: Jacqueline, Vivian, Vana … heck, I don’t know. There’s so many pretty girl names out there :3

Boys: Zachary (after Zachary David Porter, of course), maybe Cameron (after Cameron Michael Quiseng) , Stephen, Derek, or Amanda. haha jk about Amanda ;)

Sixteen. What is your favorite color?

Pink & turquoise  ♥

Seventeen. What is your favorite flower?

Peonies. They have so many petals & are so darn beautiful!

Twenty-two. Left or right handed?

Imma lefty! I love being a lefty, too. It’s nice being different, but I hate how I always smudge when I’m writing. Esp. on chalkboards.

Twenty-six. What is your relationship status?

Uh. It’s dry as the Sahara desert, unfortunately! It’s weird because I think a couple of people like me, but they’re all .. shall I say … nerds? Weirdos? I’m not trying to be mean – it’s just some of them are annoying and frustrating. I don’t understand how I always attract the pokemon, fairy, & alien lovers. Am I really that weird?? 

Twenty-seven. Last movie you just watched.

TANGLED. Beautiful, I say! Pixar is amazing.

Thirty. A book you want to read/have recently read.

Recently read Fahrenheit 451.  It was genius, I recommend it to everyone!! I’m also reading The Help, which is also really good! Oh yes! And I just finished Sea of Monsters yesterday! (I’ve read the series already, just wanted to read them again because they’re so good) My goodness. I read a lot.

That concludes my rant :) I’m sorry I haven’t been posting interesting stuff lately. I’ll try to think of something ^_^ Thanks for reading though~! 


I looked at him for what may have been the last time. His dark eye brows were scrunched up on his forehead, his eyes a swirling mass of blue. He was standing over me, looking at me like I was a small animal that needed caring for.
Finally I said what I wanted to say for so many years now.
“Luke.. I -”
They pulled me from the room.
I never got to say the 3 words that meant so much to me.

Ok, ok, here come the sad part for me… you all know my favorite band, Allstar Weekend. The guitarist left the band for unknown reasons. I am so bummed. I haven’t been crying so hard in such a long time. Nathan was really a great guy, and Zach, Cam & Mikey said they decided to ‘seperate ways professionally & personally.’ What gets me is they they split personally. The guys have been friends for almost 10 years; what fight could have spooked them so much to make them undeclare Nathan as their friend?? It’s upsetting, it really is. My four favorite boys are now down to 3. It makes me sad to know that I’ll never see him with the guys again, or that he’ll never be in any of their videos. What gets me is that I’ll never get to meet him. When I go to the boy’s concerts when I’m older, I won’t get to meet him.

I love Nathan so much, I really didn’t want him to leave. Us addubers haven’t heard from Nathan in 3 months, until he tweeted something today. It was a song, a quite beautiful one in fact. Here it is .. 

Dance forever, Nathan <3

Nathan’s on the left. He is so talented. I miss him so much.




Fun ‘What-Would-You-Do-Questions!”

I love answering these kind of questions. “What would you do if..”  I’ll answer some today :)

1)  If you had only 24 hours to live, what would you do?

I would say good bye to all my loved ones & friends, of course. Then I’d go do something outrageous. Like I’d dress up like a banana with my friends (or maybe just one, I think only one out of all of them would do it) & go running around in the streets. I’d attempt to go surfing &  I’d do everything I’d want to do in my life & do it in that one day. I’d apologize to people if I’d ever hurt them, I’d say thank you, I’d tell all the ‘mean’ people in my class what I really felt about them (harsh, i know..) & basically I’d have the time of my life. When I’m in Heaven or something I don’t want to look back & see all the things I regret or could have done, but didn’t. 

2) If you could ask God any one question, what would it be?

“When will I die?” It’s a depressing question I know, but I want to be prepared so that in the time I have left, I can live my life to the fullest.

3) If you could be another man or woman for a day, who would you choose?

I’d be my sister :p She just has it all good, everything figured out, she has so many friends, she’s smart & very pretty, inside & out. Right now she’s living it up in SD.

4) If you could date a celebrity, who would you choose?

Easy. Zachary David Porter. Ugh, I can’t get enough of him! He’s so sweet, funny, kind & .. awkward.. but that’s what makes him amazing. He’s also a great song writer, singer, musician & he’s just really down-to-earth. Please bear with me. 

5) If you could speak any other language (besides English) which language would you like to speak?

I’d speak French. French is just so beautiful, seriously. Every time I hear a person speak it, I think of class. Weird, I know, it’s just a classy language.

 6) If you had one wish, what would you wish for?

I’d wish for world peace. But I’m not entirely sure. I’m convinced everything happens for a reason. Maybe bad people were put on the earth to make us stronger. So I’d probably scratch that. I’d wish that innocent, good people would all have a long, happy life with no sorrow or pain. It’s what they really deserve. It’s what everyone deserves. 

7) If you had to choose between love and no money or money and no love for the rest of your life, which would you choose?

Of course love. What do you think those people who have no money have? All they have is love. And that’s what keep them going. That’s what keeps them moving everyday- love. That’s really all you need.

8) If you had to choose, would you give up your sight or your hearing?

I would give up hearing. The world is just too beautiful to give up my vision. If I was deaf I could always learn how to sign & read lips. I think I’d be alright :)

9) If you were asked to choose which time period you would like to live in, which would you choose?

I’d live in the 70’s, baby! That sounds like fun. Fantastic colors, great music & awesome, outrageous clothing. Peace would be trending. Discos! Wow, that would be amazing. And best of all, it’s all before things start getting complicated with the computers & iPhones & such. I love the advanced technology we have today, but sometimes I think it has many downsides. My goodness. I’d never admit it in front of her, but Lucy, you were right; I am a hippie  -__- Check out this 70’s song: it’s so amazing! And so catchy! And so groovy! (pun intended)  haha ♥

10) If you were given choice to live as long as you like, how long would you like to live?

I’d live until I’m 100. So then I could see how much things had changed since I was born. Honestly, that’s the only reason. I wouldn’t want to live any longer than that – my friends & fam would’ve already been passed away; I couldn’t live without company. I would never choose to live forever. Then I’d never go to Heaven- the only place you would ever be truly happy :( Besides – when the world explodes or whatever, what what happen?? Would I just be floating in Space?? No way Jose!  

10 questions is all for now :) Just so you guys know- I probably won’t be on again in a very long time. A few weeks, maybe? I promise no longer than that :) I’m going on vacation tomorrow (oh dang, I need to pack -__-) & I’ll be gone for a week. When I get back it’s going to be all about school – uniforms & supplies. Sadly I won’t be able to post as much when school starts :( But in the meantime, you can watch these awesome videos!! :) I found most of these on StumbleUpon. All of these are amazing! Hope you enjoy them!! 

These are also amazing..:

I found the following on StumbleUpon & I can’t insert them on this page, so just click on the link if you please. All of them are interesting so give them a try! ♥

Water ink!

T-shirt wars!!

Cute ducky~!

Piano stairs-   

Your handwriting made into a font!    

AMAZING spray painter!~    

Cool water fountain in Japan!!   

A new way to paint –  

Beautiful how to instructions on how to paint a beautiful forest!~   

If you want to watch Lion King again, here’s the whole movie haha!   

I know, I know :p I think this is a really great song! It’s really catchy & it’s one of their new songs. It hasn’t been released it, this is the live version :) 

That’s all for today :) Let me know which video is your favorite! Please note again that I won’t be on in about 1-2 weeks. I better go pack now, so I hope you guys have a great week! I’ll be back soon, I promise :)

Plinky Prompts ~

I forgot I signed up for this thing called Plinky, which I don’t really use, but today I got an e-mail asking me to answer all the prompts from last week. They are decent questions, so from now on I guess if I keep getting emails from them I’ll answer new ones whenever they send some to me on here :) So, here are my answers. 

1) If you could get away with committing one crime, what would you do?

       I honestly have no idea. I really don’t want to commit a crime, even if I could get away w/ it ;p (^__^ I know I’m boring)

2) What do you worry about?

     I seriously worry about everything :( I worry about grades, my fam & friends, the milk expiration date, when my glitter pens will run out of ink, how many tissues I need to bring, whether or not my flowers will grow this year, etc. I tend to over think things too much :)

3) Do you think money can buy happiness?

Hm. Well, my real answer is that yes, I think money can buy happiness. But I’m not talking about a new video game, or splurging on iPods & game systems, I’m talking about things that you need to survive that money can buy. An example is a house to keep you sheltered, insurance for when you get sick, & of course food (to live!!) & education (which will benefit you later on in life.) If you don’t have money, I doubt you could  buy any of those things for yourself (not including assistance) & I think you need those to be happy. Well, at least, I would need those to be happy :p But if you’re really a trooper, and you’re an optimistic, I guess you can go on without that stuff. And of course, family’s really important too, you don’t need money for that :) 

4) Do you feel obligated to finish all the books you start reading?

Um, judging by all the unfinished books on my bookshelf, I guess no :) Because I am a “sort-of writer,” naturally I want don’t want an author’s hard work & dedication to go to waste. But then I realize if I’m not interested in the book, then it’s just not for me to read at that time. So no, I don’t really feel obligated to finish a book.

5) You just acquired a magic wand. What will you use it for? 

Opening locks. Alohamora. Summoning objects. Accio french fry ;) Levitating objects. Wingardium Levisoa! Creating light. Lumos! Erasing people’s memories! Obliviate! And of course.. killing people! Advada Kadarva! (jk on that one)


6) What form of exercise do you like most? 

     Um, I don’t really like exercising in general :( But if I had to choose, I would pick jumproping & playing v-ball.

7) What’s your favorite summertime sound? 

      I really enjoy hearing the crickets chirp at night. It’s like a beautiful symphony, each individual cricket is using its voice to create an overall pleasing melody. I’m kidding. I really detest bugs, & just hearing them chirp makes me think of all the ones I can’t see but are crawling around at that very moment :( My real fav summertime sound is .. the ice cream truck! I love the ice cream truck tune, it’s cute & it screams summer :)

I guess that’s all for now! & before you go, please vote on this poll :) Even if you already voted, that’s ok, vote again! I really would prefer you to choose just one answer, so I can really narrow it down :)

Okey-dokey~ I’m probably not going to post tomorrow, because I’ll be out all day WATCHING THE HARRY POTTER PREMIERE :) (sorry, I’m excited..) & other stuff of course. Oh yes! I also got a pretty new journal yesterday :) 

It’s so pwetty :) I also like it because it has no spiral, which makes things so much easier ’cause imma lefty ;) Have a good one :)



If you understand this picture, then you’re cool :) This makes you 20x cooler/nicer/cuter/more adorable /funnier Cam! ♥


13 Questions :)

Hey guys :) Someone asked me to do these questions so I’d be happy to. ^_^ If you have any more questions you want to ask me, feel free to leave a message :)

1. Three things I want to say to three different people.

     Grandpa: I’m really confused with everything that’s going on right now, & why it’s all happening. I guess I’ll just have to forgive & forget, but sometimes it’s so hard to forgive. 

     Zach: It’s kind of crazy but amazing how happy you make me. I’m so fortunate to have come across you because you never fail to make me smile, no matter what happens :) I love you ♥

    Sydney: I love you & you are truly the ultimate role model for me :) thank you for being there with me through thick & thin. I don’t know what I would do without you!! 

2. One of my insecurities.

      One of my insecurities is that I just can’t seem to let go. I really love everyone I know dearly, & to think I could ever lose one of them just breaks my heart :( I love my friends so much & I fear that when we don’t go to the same school anymore we’ll touch. If that happens, I’ll never be able to forgive myself because my friends are so amazing.

3. What turns me on.

      What turns me on is just someone that has a lot of confidence in themselves. I don’t really have much self confidence but I really appreciate those who are able influence me in a positive way. I really respect those who are bold & and independent. 

4. One of my bad habits.

      :) Well. One of my bad habits is that when I’m nervous or something I start biting my nails. (which is a horrible habit that I’ve had for years now -__- ) I also have the bad habit of not finishing things I start. At the beginning when I start something new, I’m very excited but sometimes I lose my motivation & drive & don’t carry out my plan :(

5. Who I wish I could be.

     I don’t wish to be anyone but myself. But I really want to be the type of person that is compatible with everyone & the type of person that has the trait of leadership. :) I really want to travel the world one day & meet new people, learn about more cultures & just help as many people as I can. I just really want to make a difference & make a positive impact on someone’s life. :)

6. Where I want to be right now.

Right now I want to be roaming in the streets of Paris with a close friend, stay the Ritz Carlton & just have a fun, relaxing day filled with .. shopping, la nourriture et l’amour..  Well, a girl can dream, right? 

7. The last thing I ate.

   A Quizno’s Sammie & Sunchips. It was delicious ^__^

8. Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately.

Um. Wow. Zach. I love you. 

9. What song I’m currently listening to.

      Haha, that’s a funny question. I’m listening to “The Nice Boys Song,.” It’s seriously the sweetest “song” ever! It’s really cute, & Cam (the guy singing) is really the sweetest guy in the entire world. Check it out if you like nice boys. ;)  

10. The last time I cried and why.

      Today I cried watching Extreme Makeover: Home Edition :( It was so sad, but I really love that show. ♥

11. Something I’m excited about.

    I’m REALLY excited for the Harry Potter Deathly Hallows Premiere! I can’t wait!!! HP=my life. 

12. Best things about my life.

   Best thing is that I have amazing fam & friends that will always be with me. Best thing about my life is that I’m really really fortunate! Who knows, I could have been living in a box on the street, or abused, or have an illness, or experience tremendous sadness. And I feel I am SO lucky to be who I am, & have as many opportunities that I have today. I thank God everyday. ♥   

13. Three things I want right now.

        I want to travel the world. I want my friends to be with me forever. And I want my fam & friends to be truly happy & healthy, always. I don’t want material things because I finally realized that that kind of stuff will never make me happy. Because soon all those things will break or I will lose interest, and then…? All I will have left is my fam & friends, the only things in the world that will truly make me happy :)

Hope you enjoyed, & that I didn’t bore you to tears. & if you read this whole thing, then you have an incredible amount of patience. Kudos to you. :) Comment if you please, I love hearing from you guys! ♥