How I Began to Love Writing ~

Good DAY, detectives!

Once again, this blog has been as lonesome as those sorry little tumbleweeds in western movies for the past . . . couple of months?! I apologize – my schoolwork has swept me off my feet and dumped my free time into, well, a bottomless abyss.

[Now for a rather watery-eyed confession from me, Kezi, but if you love to write, you’re going to read this because you’re curious. Like all writers, you’re curious as to how other crazy people like you started out.]

THE BIG BANG – The website that started it all

Today, I decided to explore my thoughts and interests, because, guess what? I’ve had this blog for almost two years!

As a refresher – this blog was an alternative, a blog just for me, after my trials and errors with a cutesy writing website. I made it when I was 11 or 12.

I, surprisingly, learned so much about people in general and about the responsibility of pleasing my viewers. I think that website, where I showcased my writings, however childish they may seem now, had finally clicked for me. Creating unknowingly changed my life. It was something I never told my parents about. Or all of my friends, despite its rising popularity. I wanted to be completely independent and learn things myself.

And I did! Not only did I explore and pave my path to finding my voice while writing, (which has always been important to me) I actually WROTE. Almost every day. I kept editing and I spent countless hours in front of the computer revising and revising and revising because I had an active audience who expected great things from me.

With motivation, I could transform from an awkward, shy girl into something like a superhero.

I learned how to manipulate photos and use photo editors, and just more about technology in general.

Those were the days! That website really affected me, and I am just realizing this now as I am typing. It was permission to give some of myself to the world, and I received positive reactions, not flying fruits! It was glorious. That is what inspired me to pursue a career in communications, or more specifically, journalism or creative writing.

Sadly, I faded out of this phase voluntarily because I spotted that those who loved and enjoyed my site were escaping the whole “pretty-graphics-on-a-webpage” phase as well. After many years, I decided I only had two choices:

1) Never update my website & slowly fade out of existence

2) Close it down with a proper good-bye and explanation, & give my viewers a substantial reason

So I chose option 2.

Rather than continually chugging out stories and writing tips for people who knew more about writing than I did, I decided to feed and cultivate the love I had for writing even more by exploring my “talents.”

This, TA-DA! Was my product. I’m quite satisfied.

I’ve looked back at my old website I put so much effort into, and I remembered making people so happy. When I closed it down, 14 people (hey, 14 is better than none) told me they were inspired to write more because of the dedication I put into my stories. I discovered I even had a secret fan club with an intimate 5 members who visited and raved over my stories every day. I realized I CAN do it. I can probably make it in the writing business – if I can attract a couple of hard-core fans without realizing it, I could probably attract more down the road if I worked hard.

I’ll tell you a secret – that was the best feeling in the world. To know that I had made a difference by simply having an enthusiasm for something that I already had a deep-rooted love for. Although sometimes I look back at my silly and frilly pink website with a cartoon elephant saying, “Welcome” on the home page, it really meant a lot to me, and it STILL means a lot to me. And that’s saying something, since I was only 11 or 12 when I made it, and I’m just a silly teenager who’s about to be 15 right now.

Many things  have changed. If you look back to some of my previous entries on this site, which stretch back to July 2011, you’ll see that I become increasingly sarcastic over the years! I’ve unconsciously stopped using an abundance of smiley faces, and my writing has become more formal. I’ve also written about more mature subjects. For example – this is the opening of a blog I wrote in August, 2011.

Hey guys! Wow, today was such a great day! Our grade had a retreat, all day, (no classes) at the gym of the neighboring church. My goodness, it was really fun & inspiring. We made play-doh monsters, skits, lectures, FREE FOOD, piggy-back races, races with the interns & basically, when we weren’t in the middle of an activity or lecture, we were partying :) Everyone was running around, dancing on chairs & spinning around & getting dizzy. (that’s what I did ^_^)

Ahh, how refreshing is that sweet child-like innocence?! I’m still a child, of course, but I’m just a little more sure of myself now and it’s pertinent.

The early years, and the scary books I wrote that freak me out now.

I started like any other person who love to write – by reading! My favorite book in Pre-K was Hippopotamus Wants to Take a Bath  and in Kindergarten, it was The Dying Cactus. Now that I think of it, I have no idea why a 4/5 year old was so intrigued by dying plants . . . but perhaps this inspired me to create my first “serious” – and rather morbid – story in 2nd grade.

But before that, my first story ever was called Flora Buttercup, a girl who lived in the Philippines. Yup. That’s it. (Don’t blame me, I was 6 when I wrote those 2 pages!)

My next one was when I was 7 – 9 years old, but I mostly remember 2nd grade. It was called The Deals and Julia. This is why it was morbid –

-Julia and her family go on a kayaking trip down a river

-What they don’t know is that river extended into a humongous waterfall

-The water fall was about 30 feet high.

-Julia, her parents, her little sister, and her baby brother fall down the waterfall.

-Her parents died because they didn’t know how to swim. I gave the reader false hope and I gave the parents a log to float on but then I made a wave, which washed it away, and therefore they drowned

-Her baby brother drowned

-Her sister hit her head on a rock on the way down, Julia saved her. But then the sister got bit by a poisonous banana spider, turned purple, and fell into the water, drowning.

. . . I don’t know about you, but I think that is pretty morbid for someone who’s hasn’t lost all their teeth yet.

My point has been made – I’ve never been afraid to push boundaries and limit myself to what is “normal” and “acceptable” writing. In fact, I find writing about twisted murders, shady characters, and post-apocalyptic worlds  highly amusing. On the other hand, sometimes I write about sappy things, like teenage love stories because, I hate to admit it, I’m a romantic.

Over the course of the years I made more stories, and I won’t get into that because there are too many to count!

Something else, other than the website that really made me love writing even more (and more cocky that I already was) was winning gold at a district competition for Ready Writing. They give you a topic and you write as much or as little as you want about it, and it’s judged subjectively by a panel of 3 judges. There were 50 kids my age and a year older then me in the competition.

That’s my writing history, because quite frankly, I haven’t been alive for too long.

Why writing is an escape for me

I’ve always thought of writing as an escape. I’ve learned that words are malleable and can be manipulated to form the most beautiful and interesting passages, and I fell in love with that. Writing is a form of self-expression that tears down barriers in my mind and leaves a gateway into creativity and beauty! It’s so spectacular how amazing good writing can make me feel  – because of the many talented writers out there, I’ve been able to explore in a completely new way. I get chills when I read good books, I become so enveloped in the story and the characters that I want to create something that will make other people feel that way, as well.

I fell in love with those moments where a word just FITS so perfectly to convey my thoughts – at those moments, I am reminded of how words can be so incredibly powerful. I love how I can be completely stuck on what I’m writing and suddenly, images and words string themselves together to help me create a perfect affirmation of  what I’m writing. It’s a beautiful and mysterious thing that I can’t seem to shake off.

As much as I’ve been told I’m a good writer, I’ve had more times where people tell me there is no career in it. Some people don’t seem to take me seriously when I tell them, because later on, they either question it or they ask me again what I want to do. My answer will not waver. 

I’ve realized over the years that writing is something I’ve always considered and never negated. Although other careers like being a sociologist or teacher have been possibilities for me, nothing can beat the elation I feel when I write. It’s tough and sometimes drives me crazy, but perhaps that’s the “consequence” of becoming more accomplished and creating something I am proud of. I also love to write because it often comes out as wild and unpredictable, and free. The freedom is so sweet.


Although I don’t write as much as I used to,  I still feel the same raw and pure joy I feel when I put something together. I also can’t go a day without reading. And when I read, I dissect the words, I dissect the characters. I dissect the meanings of the book and how the writer used certain words to produce a certain effect. For some reason, I can’t just enjoy the story, I have to understand how the writer came to carry it out. I think that means something.

Call me cocky or inexperienced, or call me an inefficient girl who wants to make a name for herself one day, but doesn’t have the natural talent to. Or, tell me that I’m still a sapling in comparison to the greats and I have a lot to learn. I agree, I need to experience more things to truly be labeled a “writer,” because technically, I’m not one.

But I’ll tell you this – I do have a burning passion for writing, and people always tell me if you love what you do, keep doing it.

Book Reviews!

Hi everyone!

Hope you all are having a great day so far. Today I stopped by Borders! I’m really very upset that one of my favorite retail bookstores is closing :( I love Borders because it has a great selection of books as well as cards, journals & other fun stuff. I still have Barnes & Noble around but I’m just sad that another bookstore is closing. Is it just me, or do you feel like the world is being ‘overwhelmed’ by technology?? I love technology. Without it I wouldn’t be typing this right now. It just seems that less & less people are taking the time to read books. The other day I was reading a comic & it was of these kids approaching a bookstore that said ‘books on paper available’ & the kids said: “Look! An antique store!” .. I thought that comic was sort of funny but I also find it kind of sad that most people nowadays aren’t appreciating the talent & time it takes to write a good book. I have a Nook, by BN, but .. it just doesn’t have the same feeling as a regular paper or hardback.. the ink is generated & it has a back light, which I find sort of weird. There’s not a more fulfilling feeling then curling up with a good, old-fashion hardback. It’s like drinking a cup of tea. That’s why I would prefer a book over an eReader any day.

I bought 3 books because I had to get rid of my gift cards or else the money would go to waste :( Speaking of books- this post is going to be all about them to encourage people who don’t usually read to pick up a book! The ones I recommend are all extremely amazing. There are only a few on this list because nowadays it’s hard to find an ‘exceptional’ book. Most of these aren’t those sappy teenage romance books where the girl loses everything & her boyfriend or any of that cliche nonsense. So if you like those, you might want to try looking somewhere else haha :) Here goes :)

The House of The Scorpion by Nancy Farmer

Genre is SciFi. Here is a summary of the book copied fr., credit goes to them because I read it a long time ago. 


His DNA came from El Patrón, lord of a country called Opium — a strip of poppy fields lying between the United States and what was once called Mexico. Matt’s first cell split and divided inside a petri dish. Then he was placed in the womb of a cow, where he continued the miraculous journey from embryo to fetus to baby. He is a boy now, but most consider him a monster — except for El Patrón. El Patrón loves Matt as he loves himself, because Matt is himself.

As Matt struggles to understand his existence, he is threatened by a sinister cast of characters, including El Patrón’s power-hungry family, and he is surrounded by a dangerous army of bodyguards. Escape is the only chance Matt has to survive. But escape from the Alacrán Estate is no guarantee of freedom, because Matt is marked by his difference in ways he doesn’t even suspect.

Ok. This book is seriously really good if you like SciFi :) It thrilling & I thought it was a very worthwhile book. (sorry for the horrible review on this one, I barely remember it; I read it so long ago.)

Esperanza Rising by Pam Munoz Ryan 

Set in 1924, Esperanza lives in Mexico & she has it all- a wonderful family, a grand house & everything she wants- until her father is killed by bandits. Her life, her wealth & her family are shattered. Esperanza & her family leave their home in Mexico & leave for California, where they work hard on a farm.

This book was really inspirational- & I’m not sure if I would read this if the book was set in present time- but the fact that it was placed in 1924 adds to the loveliness of this book. It’s nice to see exactly what’s going on in that time era. Everything is really hard for Esperanza & her family. I also would like to recommend Becoming Naomi Leon, also by Pam Munoz Ryan. Ms. Ryan is an amazing author, she really captivates the reader & makes the book & the events seem real. I recommend any book written by her. 

The Mysterious Benedict Society by Trenton Lee Stewart.

 I have never read a series so clever. This book is about 11 year old Reynie, & he is a very clever thinker. He goes to a center where he & other children his age take tests with strange questions, relating to logic, skill & bravery. Out of the many people taking the test, Reynie & only a couple other children were selected on a journey to stop the progressing evil threatening to overwhelm their world. This book is the first out of the trilogy & I LOVED IT. It was so clever & I love how the clues & such were carefully placed. Amazing. I really recommend this book. It’s funny, charming, clever & exciting. Read the whole series! You definitely won’t regret it.

The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

This book contained the most beautiful, touching, amazing story I have ever read in my entire life. No joke. This book isn’t fiction, it was written by a wise, young man who is was living with cancer, & he only had  a few months to live. He’s a college professor, & in this book he shares his wisdom of how to live your life & stories of his own. This book made me laugh & made me cry- it’s really great :) I recommend it to everyone of all ages :)

The Five People you Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom

This book is one you’ll want to keep reading over & over again! Eddie is a maintenance man at an amusement park named Ruby Pier. Over the years Ruby Pier lost a bit of its luster, but Eddie continued to grease the rides & prepare them for riding to keep the children safe. Eddie is the unseen hero – he has probably saved hundreds of lives by doing his job. One day, a little girl has an accident. Eddie spent his last few seconds on earth trying to save the girl from death. When he wakes up, he realizes that Heaven isn’t a white paradise – it’s a place where you meet 5 people who explain what your purpose in life was. I really think this story was very touching & sweet. It makes you think a bit what Heaven will be like after we take our final breath. It’s beautiful. 

And then There Were None by Agatha Christie

This is the most exciting mystery I’ve ever read! 8 people – who are all completely different – are invited to Soldier Island. When they arrive, they realize that there is no way off. Suddenly one of the 8 dies. Then another. Then another. They do not die from natural deaths – they are murdered, sometimes in the most clever ways. They begin to see a pattern of the deaths, & soon, everyone is frightened that they will be the next to be murdered. Who is killing these people? And why? Who can they trust? Read this book! It’s very exciting, & it was my first Agatha Christie novel. This is most likely one of the best books ever! :)

Harry Potter Series by J.K. Rowling

I understand that everyone has heard that Harry Potter is legend, & that is most certainly true. You all know the story, so I won’t even bother to explain it – rather, I’m going to convince you to read it! J.K. Rowling has officially wrote the most magical (no pun intended), beautiful, touching, most believable characters & story line I have ever read. And I was barely alive (not like 1 years old, I was older than that ^_^ ) during the whole ‘Harry Potter age.’ If this series wasn’t any good, why is there a theme park, stores, merchandise, & not to mention the bazillion fans that have adored this series for several years? Why hasn’t the Potter died out yet? It’s 2011. The first book was released in 2001. 10 years of magic, tears, laughter, sorrow & amazement.  It hasn’t died because of the characters that are so witty, & so clever; and not to mention the story line & how J.K. Rowling drops clues & hints so slyly in the story. How every single name and character in the book has a special meaning.

And if you don’t believe me, go here & see how much thought went into this series:

How all the spells & potions also have a special meaning. Harry Potter is just so believable, so charming anyone would find themselves rooting for Harry without knowing it. I could go on & on about HP, but for your eye’s sake, I’ll stop rambling. All I have it say is to pick up this book & read it. It will change your life. It changed the lives of people all around the world, and & mine also. The End. Mischief Managed. 

That’s all for now :) I will be updating this post regularly! :) All of these books are amazing & I hope know you will love them if you read them :) If you guys have any other books you want to share, be sure to let me know, I’m always up for reading new books! 

And thank you all who have read this post, it means bunches to me! Hope you can use this to find a book that suits you. I wasn’t even aware that anyone read my blogs – and suddenly boom! You guys come out of nowhere!  Be sure to check out some of my others if you have time. Thank you for your kind comments & words & thanks again for reading! Have a good one! ♥ Kezi